I thought I was suppose to be doing something…

So today is Lily’s first day of head start and wow, it seems like she is growing up way to fast. She was so pretty in her new dress, hair up, new back pack and jacket. Gosh, I am so proud of her. She could barely wait to get out the door this morning. Here’s her and her daddy.

When we got to H.S. Lily was in her own world. She was having a blast. I was so happy. I teared up..waaah!!Isn’t she beautiful? She was a little hesitant about me leaving, but when I left this is what she was doing.

 

I just wanted to share our morning with you and some pictures. I finally know how to put pictures on, so I have no excuses. I’ll share more later. Have a great day.

Calm Before the Storm.

Today, I am getting the house back in order. Finally went and registered my car this morning, laundry and dishes need to be caught up and dinner needs to be made. This is my to do list today.

Yesterday, I got to go into the OB and help with some post partum care. It was very interesting and hopefully I will get there some day, but I am just taking it one day at a time. Tomorrow is my first 12 hour clinical day on the med/surg floor. I am really excited, but kind of nervous. I will be starting with 2 patients and wow, I am really rusty. Will let you know how it went.

So for now, I am really hoping Jenny B-P is having a really GREAT first day today at the hospital. We will get through this Jenny, I am just not sure if we are going to have a mind when we are done, but we will get through it!!!

Enjoy the beautiful day. Nikki

Long time, no write…..

So, I haven’t written in a while. I bet you could guess, I am very busy with school. Today(and yesterday) my girli Jenny and I studied for our first exam. I am pretty confident which I kind of feel nervous about, but I think we are going to do well on this test. I just love my Jenny!!! I had to say that for all to know.

The girls spent the day with their Mimi and had a really good time, so that was nice.

I guess I might even go to bed soon. I am really tired. Wish me luck. Good night.

Winding down…

It has been a very long week and today the girls and I are just winding down. Grace is upstairs laying down and Lily is watching a movie with me. Last night I decided to go to Ellsworth to watch the class I missed yesterday. I am glad I decided to do that because today Curtis, the girls and I are going to make a trip to bangor. We will probably go out to dinner and then come home. I think we also need a few groceries.

My checklist has gotten smaller. Here are the things I have completed for Nursing 201.

• Final Paper
• Math Exam
• Competency Based Skills
• Ped skills
• Ped Assessment
• Collaborative

I still have a lot to accomplish including 5 exams, L and D Reaction Paper, Revision Paper, 3 Full Assessments. But, we are going to be ok, right Jenny?

For now, I think I am going to hang out and do a whole lot of nothing. Hope everyone enjoys their day.

A special post…..

So I have this friend that turned 41 today!!!! I am such a bad friend though, because I never wished her a happy birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNY!! You are such a great friend. I hope you had a great day (of course after you left school.

So glad lab is over for the beginning of the semester. Going to do a little reading and go to bed. Good night all.

One more lab day….

I am so glad we only have one more lab day. I can’t wait to go to the hospital and start getting my hours for this semester in. I am also very excited for our OB rotation. I think I am really going to enjoy it. I am already very interested in our theoretical content of the course. And as everyone knows, I have small children of my own.

I have to get my reading done, so for now I am going to READ!!!! Have a wonderful night.

Marriage ramblings….

So, I think I am going to go on a tangent. Who said marriage was easy? Do you ever feel lonely, upset, and just plain tired? I am so sick of feeling like I am in this alone. Sometimes, I wonder where would I be if I wasn’t here, right now. I love being a mother, but at the same time, I hate it. I know that some people would think this is harsh. I would never wish that I didn’t have my children. They are the best thing in my life. But, I do wish that I could just be happy. I think it has a lot to do with the ups and downs of my relationship with my husband. Sometimes I think he comes from a totally different world. I mean how can you have no emotions. I don’t understand how I am so awful and I am the worst mother in the world. I do everything for my family, and I get nothing.

Anyways….I am just so excited to get this year over and get back to a somewhat normal life. I hate not working. I feel like I am worthless. I know this isn’t true, but it’s hard not to feel that way. Am I the only mother that fights with these emotions you don’t even understand yourself?

Wow…..I feel a little better after splurging my guts. Sorry about the bullshit. Any advice anyone?

One day down….how many left?

Today was my first day of lab. It went great. Got a lot of skills under my belt and I was surprised how well I picked up after not doing them for about 4 months. I got my peds assessment nearly finished. Just need to ask my girly Jenny what I should do for diagnosis. I have a hard time with that.

I am really tired tonight so I think I am going to call it a night. Just wanted to let everyone know things went well today. I think I am going to be ok this semester. Hopefully…….

So relaxed….

I have been going non stop all day long and now I am finally laying down in bed, with books all around me, thinking about how my first day back at school is going to be. I can’t wait to start, but I know I am going to miss being home with the kids. I love being home with them, and I am so lucky that I am able to. But, the girls are ready to play with different people during the weeks and to be honest so am I.

Tomorrow is my neices’ first day of kindergarten. I am so excited for her. I am going to watch her get on the bus and take some pictures for her mommy. I think my sister is going to be beside herself and kind of emotional, so I want to be there for her also.

Today I spent my day, cleaning the house, cooking casseroles for my long nights, and getting meat into the freezer for this winter. We are doing pretty good. I am going to try and get like 10 or so loaves of bread in the freezer also. The girls and I also went to the fair one last time with my mom. We just kind of looked around and ate mostly. Lily got to ride the ponies at the fair yesterday, so she really wanted to do it again today, but the lines were horendous….however you spell that.

Well, I guess it’s time for me to go to bed. Good night all. Wish me good luck this semester. Here we go again……………

We can do this JENNY!!!!

Big Money…

Today I spent a lot of money….and it was on food!! Boooooo………..no fun. Went to AC Moore and bought a few things to finish some projects around the house. Then went to sams and spent about $250. But, we have the freezer stocked a bit. Oh well….at least thats done. I want to work on some casseroles for Curtis when I have late nights at clinical, he can just pop one in for him and the girls. Anyone have any good recipe they want to share??

Tonight we went to the fair one last time. Just with Lily so she could do some rides and we went with her. She was so cute….she made me tear!! Oh I love my girls. Curtis and I went on the skydiver….wow that was fun. It made my tummy tickle a little bit, but I didn’t get sick. Yeay for that.

Tomorrow I have to get the house in order and start watching skills for class the following day. So for now, I think I am going to hit the sack. Have a great night.